Midwifery

You know...it's seldom easy. Sure, sometimes we get the easy birth, "butter birth", they call it. Most times it's hard. It's hard because there are layers upon layers of emotional damage to dig through, hard because there are medical professionals fighting your every move, hard because mommas want what they want, hard because in the midst of all that we are as midwives...we are also moms, wives, daughters, and friends. I just transported a mother for a true "emergency c-section". It was really needed. The baby was done with birth and at only 2 ounces shy of 11 pounds I was without a way. The baby was born without complications and was is doing well today, but in many ways I felt like I had let down my client and my friend. After all, the body shouldn't grow a baby too big and besides this momma was no stranger to big babies, her 1st was 10.1 and was delivered posterior and vaginally, so why???? I was so shocked that this guy couldn't make it through and while we dug for answers I just know this Dr. is sitting here shaking his head as to why we keep doing this and why we aren't surrendering everything to the mainstream medical establishment when had we waited another hour this baby may not have been born breathing. And I'm going to be honest here, I think this Dr. is quite awesome!! don't get me wrong, but there's a problem going too far any one direction!! Midwifery is amazing, but thank God we have medicine when a momma or baby is sick. Obstetrics is amazing, but overkill for most "butter births". I'm just tired tonight. I'm wishing all could have been better. I'm wondering what, besides size, got in the way of this little baby. Baby and mom are doing fine, just wish we didn't have to go into hospital!!